The bond will consume you
Michael
I ball my hands into fists and grind my teeth as my mother accuses me of something that wasn't my fault. My father, being the Alpha, decided that my mother would have no other future than to serve him. And even though it was well known that he wasn't faithful to her, my father wasn't going to let her leave him with another.
My mother's lover turned out to be her fated mate, bringing chaos to our lives.
I stared at her, intensely, and with the annoyance that her accusations always cause me, I told her “I was fifteen years old, Mother, how was I going to face the Alpha, especially when he was my father?”
But without giving me a chance to finish, my mother interrupted me, “I would never have told you or even allowed you to face him. Never, Michael. And it wasn't that, but the fact that you didn't see anything wrong with what he was doing. What he was doing to me. What the entire pack had to suffer for his stupid ideas. And apparently, you learned all of this very well, since, despite the fact that he is dead, you continue to follow his rules”.
What my mother was saying left me frozen, not being able to correctly register the meaning of her words. It's true what my father built, I kept it standing. I have changed some things that seemed archaic and tyrannical to me, and I have seen my pack begin to flourish, but nothing else. However, she is right. Since when I took leadership, I was afraid of failing them. So, I left things as they were, and only a few changed. Is that what I did wrong? Should I have listened to my mother and done what she asked me?
I shook my head and looked up to see that my mother hadn't taken her eyes off me. I stayed silent because I didn't know what to think.
“Son, your father wanted to preserve the purity of his race however he saw fit, even at the cost of sacrificing the bond between fated mates. That is an aberration. A curse that hangs over our heads. The same thing that happened to me is happening to you, can't you see? Your mate is from another race, with other features, but so what? Open your eyes, son, if you continue overlapping and supporting what your father so selfishly imposed, you are condemning the pack.”
I stood up, my blood boiling, and through my teeth I said, “And what do you suggest now, Mother? Going around telling the married that they are now free to go find their fated mates? And what about Laura, my wife? She, who was the one with me when my father died, the one who helped me get out of the depression I was in, and the same one who helped me carry the weight of my responsibilities as Alpha. Since you abandoned me without saying a single word, leaving the responsibility of everyone hanging on my shoulders? Tell me, Mother. Shall I say to her, thank you for your services, and goodbye?”
I was spitting when I finished, but at least my mother had the decency to look down and keep quiet.
Seeing that this wasn't going in the direction I had hoped, I sat back down, trying to calm down. And apparently, my mother did the same, since the place was completely silent, but after a few minutes, my mother spoke, “The bond will grow so strong, that your being will only want her. Any other woman will be nothing in your eyes. Your body will only crave hers, and there will be nothing you can do to stop it.”
I watched her carefully while a lump in my throat was forming. Has she gone through everything she was telling me? If that is the case, her life must have been an ordeal, having to be with a wolf, which she doesn't want. She even feels repulsed. Is that what awaits me? I cannot stay in doubt, I have to know everything.
So, I asked her, “Did that happen to you? All of this you are telling me, Is it the reason you couldn't stand being in my father's presence, much less, touch you?”
My mother looked up, and with sad, distant eyes in hers, she said, “Yes, the bond completely overtook me the first few moments I was near him. It is something indescribable. My beast practically showed its belly before him. It was its priority since we first met.”
Her eyes began to glaze over, and I watched sadly as tears began to wet her cheeks. However, she continued after cleaning them with her apron, “Only once did I touch him, when I took his hand at the gates of death.” My mother let out a terrible sob, which was even painful for me, but even so, she continued, “I never kissed him, I never hugged him, and I never heard him say how much he loved me. And despite that, in his eyes, I knew that I was everything to him. I become his whole world in those few days until your fucking father murdered him. And at the moment he died, and I felt his soul leave his body, I decided to follow him, since after him, there was nothing for me. My brain went into chaos, and seeing him lying on the ground bleeding until he lost his life, dragged me to commit something crazy, and that's when I tried to take my life.”
My mother grabbed her chest at the height of her heart, and breathed deeply, then remained silent.
I watched her, with many mixed emotions. I had no idea what she was going through, as I was focused on following my father's steps to become the future Alpha. But what I just found out is a revelation that I never expected to hear.
I blamed her all these years for being weak and trying to take her life for a man who wasn't my father. For that reason, she lost her animal. When we managed to save her from the jaws of death, she came back, but she was alone. She never told me what she had in her heart, and I didn't ask. And after the incident, and when she was able to move on her own, she disappeared, retreating to this remote part of the forest.
